The proverbial story of my life.... boy meets girl, girl meets boy, boy seems interested, girl is willing to give it a chance, boy goes away for a little while...boy comes back with a insta-girlfriend. Obviously boy sucks eggs or girl is just stupid for thinking maybe.
Though when this all started a few weeks back I didn't even want to give a thought of what could be, i think when i opened myself up to to the idea i let in more hope than i thought. Which means...probability for greater disappointment and another mess i landed myself in. It was a big step for me after feeling like you may never care for someone again, so i was willing to give it a go but maybe not.
But more than unlikely I was in the wrong. Took things for what they weren't again...I got myself hurt again. I took someone who could have just been overly nice and placed them in the maybe he likes me category. He honestly he could have, but i don't chase men, im a lady and maybe he wasn't looking for that. Maybe i was just beat to the punch, who knows...God only knows. Maybe i was even spared yet again (though im starting to feel like that is an excuse to make me feel better about the crap that happens)
All I know, long story short things seemed one way, apparently they are another, i allowed myself to feel for someone after getting the worst break of my life...and though i was refined through flames that first time apparently i need to go through it again.
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