Wait for Me

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GdlVFqI4rZo

Wait for Me by Theory of a Deadman

You are not alone tonight

Imagine me there by your side

It's so hard to be here so far away from you

I'm counting the days till I'm finally done

I'm counting them down, yeah, one by one

It feels like forever till I return to you

But it helps me on those lonely nights

It's that one thing that keeps me alive

Chorus: Knowing that you wait for me

Ever so patiently

No one else knows the feeling inside

We hang up the phone without saying goodnight

Because it's the sound of your voice that brings me home

It's never been easy to say

But it's easier when I've gone away

Chorus: Knowing that you wait for me

Ever so patiently

Yeah, you're everything I've ever dreamed of having and

It's everything I need from you just knowing that you wait for me

Bridge: What I'd give

What I'd do

Knowing I'm not there for you

Makes it so hard to leave

What I'd give

What I'd do

Anything to get me home to you

And this time I'll stay

And you wait for me

Ever so patiently

Yeah, you're everything I've ever dreamed of having

And It's everything I need from you just knowing that you wait for me

Watch me Work!

It takes a lot of strength to face your fears. Especially if it is fear of the unknown, fear of change, fear of stepping out of anything that you find familiar and safe. But I think in life it is sometimes necessary for growth. I talk about this all the time- and yet it always seems like I sit on my words. I hope this time will not just be talk but will be the catalyst for a new reaction.

God is doing some rebuilding in my life, He is restoring what was destroyed and making things better than they were before. As He is doing all of this, it is not my job just to sit here and do nothing- no He has told me to be strong and work! Not just like working at a job or anything but I think work in the rebuilding and the sooner I get with the program the sooner we can move from point A to point B.

Honestly I'm not sure what this work looks like and I think that's half of the discovery process. And as goal oriented as I am I can't say that by any certain date will I know when the rebuilding will be done. All I know is that I am at a point where I am tired of hearing the call to work and I'm honestly not doing anything. Then I go and complain about things and well...maybe if I got a move on things honestly wouldn't be so bad as I think they are or at least I would have something different to look forward too.

So that is my goal- to work and help rebuild what was broken inside of me and not be disobedient by doing nothing for all this time.

My Best Friend's Wedding: Chicken Women

I hate movies with sad endings. I really don't like them because when I watch a movie I want to be entertained. I want to leave a little joyful, adrenaline rushed or with hope for tomorrow. Why? Cause Life is depressing enough!!! I don't want that reaffirmed when I'm being "entertained"!! So usually I will watch a sad movie once, even if the ending is really good, and not again cause it hurts too much. So you can see the problem as we watched My Best Friend's Wedding last night.

I wasn't oppose to watch it, I just knew I was going to cry. I warned them I was going to cry...and I did. I cried because I empathize so much with Julia Robert's character- well at least with what she felt. She knew her friend loved her for 9 years and for 9 YEARS did nothing but run away from her feelings and sit on them. When she finds out he was planning on marrying another girl she realizes how much she wants to be with him and though she gets a million chances in the movie that could have worked out in her favor she made up all these lies and didn't tell hm to the very last second where he obviously was chasing after his bride leaving her in the dust.

I hate that she did nothing for 9 years. I hate that she didn't take the chance to say what she really felt.I hate that her only other option ( she thought) instead of telling the truth was trying to ruin his life in hopes he would come to her in the end. Cause how many of us woman actually do that? Or atleast think about it - unless we develop balls of steel and just throw caution to the wind and take the risk!! I was talking to the friend and the question was wasn't he worth the risk? Sure you might get hurt, sure your heart may break but holding in your true feeling like that is the true self torture. Loving and letting them get away has to be a worse pain than any of that. It makes your heart hurt in ways you can't imagine.

Yet how many chances do we lose? Cause of our fear or pride. I think those really are the tools of Satan right there. Granted telling your true feelings is not a sure way to happily ever after, but it sure seems better than the not knowing. Than the what could have been.

All I know is that there are times when we are given chances- many more are lost than used I think. But every now and then, someone comes along and makes you regret every chance you have ever given up and you have to live with the decisions you have made while hoping for another one.

Learn the lesson or suffer the heartache people.