Metamorphosis

Spotlight on. Microphone Check.

Hello happy people who happen upon my works of prose, I am BACK!

Lot of things have happened since our last meeting in July. For one fall semester is in full swing and I am enjoying school and practicum, I hit my year mark as case manager with my agency, birthdays galore, I went to the BIGBANG Concert ( AMAZING...sigh...), Vac-kay to visit Jess in San Diego, CA, and just took some time to think all in the same month.

Space to think is always awesome cause I can finally take time to think about my life and which way its headed. I have been learning more about my likes and dislikes, things I can live with and things that continue to eat at me and I can't take them. I have formed new goals and aspirations that are waiting to be obtained and a refreshed outlook that will help me with forward motion.

I'm excited to bring all the different parts of my life back into balance, including my relationship with God. Its been so wonderful to realize that I don't have to be a prisoner to my own life and that I have the freedom to live life abundantly ( though I'm still learning what that all entails).  I am excited to see the rest of the changes coming in the next month...but first I think i will start with hair dye :)

Drive

What drives and motivates people?

I know there are too many answers to that question to count but it would really be helpful these days. You see though there is no real reason for me to complain about my life, I have come to find that I have a caught a lack of drive. It feels like life has become so mundane. Go to sleep. eat. work. repeat.

I mean do have bouts of going out with friends, trips, doing the fun stuff, but once that's over its back to the same routine.

There are a few things I would really like to change, especially coming up to year 27 in my life before i don't get any more. Like losing weight, getting more active in the community and actually getting a real hobby for once. My good friend suggested a 27 things before 27 list.

I'm at this point where I have come to realize that the more you are in good health and are taking care of yourself ( body and mind) the better. And then the door of possibilities open up for you, dreams you never even realized come to pass and your life is full. 

But while all of that sounds amazing and great, I just won't get up and do it. I know the problem ends and starts with me but i can't even sit up long enough to press the start button...i think that's a bit of a problem. How much more life must i miss cause of my own sheer laziness or lack of motivation? I need that drive...I need my passion back. And you'd think that cause i know where the root of the problem is it would be an easy fix right? Go figure. But that's my next mission. I need to just do and may then that passion will arise.

Then I'll go all phoenix on them and the world won't know what happened ;)  #rebirth

Dodging Bullets Like I'm Superman

A little inspiration after putting some thoughts to rest.

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Pandora has a box

I want to peek inside

Not sure if i should run

Or see what I can find

Pandora has a box

But God has a plan

And because of curiosity

He saved me once again

Pandora has a box

Jesus laid it to rest

Resolving inclination

Residing in my chest

Pandora had a box

But now that box is gone

Jesus took it in a flash

And that is how we won

I'm dodging bullets like I'm Superman, yall'

Take a Breath and 5 Steps

Time to kick off the new year!!!

Blogging is such an interesting outlet of expression. You can come and go as you please; let it die and resurrect it all over again which is kind of like many other things in life. Dream, desires. goals.

It all can change in a moment. I know mine have

And in honors of the passing Valentine's Day I will write a little somethin' somethin' on my newer passing thoughts.

This Valentine's Day was spend cooking a great pasta dish and making cookie tarts for my cousin and Auntie, followed by A Walk In the Clouds which is always a good watch (mmm. Keanu)

This year was quite different than ones in years past cause instead of droning on being alone (pathetic, yes?) it quite frankly felt like any other day but just a hint of special-ness. But it did bring me to some interesting musings about love, check it out!

1. How you can't put love on a time table no matter how much you would like too.

2.You also can't force it to happen cause thats way to painful.

3.Just because people are attracted to each other does not mean they were meant to be with together. And to

4. Let go and Let God ( literally...literally) It's so much easier in the end. And also

5.Be honest with yourself with what you want and don't want out of a mate and a relationships.

If you just complete these 5 steps, love will initiate itself and it will save you a whole lot of trouble and heart ache in the end.

Now what I want to know is why did it take me 7 whole years to realize and fully understand all this? Lord knows...but I would gladly like to say that my love life is His problem now

*cue Rocky music*